WOW, so much to learn

SO holly cow my life has changed within the last year. My relationship with my husband has been cut open, flipped inside out, burned, stabbed, then salt rubbed in the wound. It’s crazy. We still love each other and are living together, we are “legally married”, but to us we are not married. We are taking a break and it is exactly what needs to happen. There is no time limit on it, but we both know that we need to be apart in order to grow into the best individual person that we can. It’s very difficult but it feels right. It would be most convenient if in the end we can come back together, obviously since we have children together. BUT for now, and for who knows how long, it is working out that we are here together for our children, as best friends, and that’s it.

Since we’ve taken this step I have realized some things about myself. I have realized that I immediately was craving attention from other men, wanting to be taken care of and loved by someone else. GREAT, let’s learn from that, that’s what this is all about. So I’ve been practicing loving myself and letting that be enough. But it is hard. Ever since I started dating when I was 18 I have jumped from one relationship to the next, miserable being alone. So now is my time to bask in this. Feel the uncomfortableness of being alone, get to know myself and know that I am all I need, I am sufficient and worthy of my own love. I can love myself more than anyone else can, I know what I want and I know how to soothe myself more than anyone else can. I am struggling though; the desire for attention from others is REAL.

I skipped the part of my life where I learned to be with myself and make my own decisions. I jumped into my relationship with Zaq full speed, 2 weeks after I broke up with my previous boyfriend. Within 2 weeks of being obsessed with Zaq he half asked me to marry him and I was deliriously all for it; I would never have to be alone ever again!!! I then got pregnant 3 months after meeting Zaq and had Jade a couple weeks before I turned 21… I was a baby having a baby.

When I got pregnant I started really feeling some actual real things about what I thought about the relationship, but I’ve got a masters degree in numbing myself to real feelings that are not beneficial to my life so I trucked on, numbing myself. And here I am, 5 years later, finally realizing that I never have given myself the time of day to feel my emotions, or find out what I really want to do. I was so busy making a good family for my children that I pushed my own feelings back. Now my feelings are out on the table and it feels good and horrible at the same time; I feel like I’m letting everyone down by voicing my feelings that maybe are not conducive to an easy family life, BUT I AM TIRED of ignoring myself. I am worthy, I matter, I love me! I’m sticking up for my feelings now, instead of ignoring them and going numb. Now is my time to grow, have space and learn to be alone with myself.

I’m still here for my children, we are all still living under one roof with plenty of love and respect to go around. It is working for us right now and we will have to see where life takes us. I am open to the universe. My heart is open.


Send good vibes and HAPPY YULE!!!!!

-Mother Marigold


I Asked For Guidance and the Universe Answered

Zaq and I have been trying to find out what we are supposed to do with our lives in the near future. Our friends, Tony and Stacy, are starting an aquaponic farm system and they need/want our help. They have promised us that all of our needs will be met, and then some. The catch is that we are starting out at the ground floor of their business so there will have to be some discomforts at first. We will get to live on 10+ acres away from the city, live in community with our friends, and farm for a living. This is exactly what I have wanted, but as always, there is a catch. We will need to house ourselves until we can build a house together and are generating more money. To me this is not that big of a deal, we have lived in a camper for 3 months before, but this will be 6 months, and with one more human in our family. Tony has promised that we can build a community house really quick by winter where we will have a kitchen, laundry room, and a place to hang out outside of our campers.

I have been praying that the Mother Goddess will clear our path for us and show us if we are supposed to take this risk. Our other, much less risky, option is to stay in the city, buy a house in Maplewood, MO and send Jade to the cute public school with chickens that we have been thinking of sending her to. Everyone in society would approve of this option, but this is not what we want. This is not what feels right to us. We have been given the opportunity to do all the things we love, but may be uncomfortable for a while until the dollas start rolling in.

I have been mulling over this decision for months, wondering when the Universe would make it clear to us or give us a sign. I didn’t want to take a risk if signs were making it obvious that it was not the right decision. I prayed everyday for clarity, guidance and a discerning mind. Then I had an intense dream. I woke up feeling like the Universe was giving me guidance.

I dreamt that I was with my sister and family and my sister was praying fervently, conjuring a storm. She was praying so hard and the storm got stronger, the sky getting darker. The storm cleared and she stopped praying. All that was left after the storm was a little bird with a broken wing. It was about the size of a spool of thread, was blue, had a gray puffin beak and a symbol on its back. I was amazed. I picked up the bird and said that this was the answer to my sisters prayer, she had been given this broken bird carrying a symbol as an answer. She wanted nothing to do with the bird and told me that it was just a hurt bird and meant nothing. I was dismayed and very upset. She did not want to take care of this bird that had been gifted to her from the gods. She was turning her back. I took the bird and it went into my amethyst necklace, and back out. Trying to fly but quickly coming back because its wing was broken. I said that it only needed a couple days to heal and it would be fine, I would take care of it. My Aunt Mary took the bird from me and her and my Aunt Julie broke off the birds wings. I was distraught and so upset. Nobody could see that this bird was an answer to a prayer, sent from the heavens as a direct message.

I woke up very upset and held back tears as I told Zaq about my dream. It felt as if I had been in direct communication with the Gods and that it was my job to decipher the message.

I readily tried to figure out what the symbol was and sketched out some ideas of what it could have been. I came up with a mix of symbols that looked similar to the symbol for Uranus, the symbol for Pisces and the symbol for Gemini.

I was pretty sure that the broken bird was carrying MY answer to MY prayers, and was slightly broken. I related this to my desire to farm with Tony and how it was everything I wanted and prayed for, but society thought that it was not because of how it was slightly a broken-uneasy-risky plan. I thought that my two Aunts in my dream could represent my societal maternal expectations that I put on myself that are trying to break the arms off my risky dream of becoming a farmer.

I told my mom, sister and anyone that I thought could help me to try to figure it out. Nothing really came of it until today when we went to go visit Tony. As we were leaving our house for Potosi I prayed out loud that this trip to see Tony and Stacy would clear up our path and that we would know if we were going to take the risk or not.

We got to Tonys and were sitting down listening to his updates and asking him questions when I saw it; the symbol that was on the back of the broken bird in my dream was tattooed on Tony’s chest. How could it be more obviously pointed out to me. Yes. Tony and the aquaponic farm were the answer to my prayers. Yes. I can take the risk and become a farmer, the Universe has lined this up for us. I got the shivers and teared up as I pointed it out to Zaq, who I had told about the dream and described the symbol too. We both just smiled and thanked the Universe for showing us our path. It has finally become clear, there is no doubt about it. We will take the risk. Whether it works out the way we expect it to or not is beside the point. The point is that we know that this is the next step in our life and it will lead us to our next path.

Brain Disease

It’s kind of as if our brain is a disease. We started off similar to wild animals, living off the Earth and with just the basic necessities to live. As time has passed it seems that we have gotten smarter and smarter and have developed all this technology and it is hurting our planet. If we weren’t here the other animals wouldn’t be doing what we are doing now. The other animals are evolving, but it doesn’t seem that their brains are advancing as fast as ours. I don’t know anything about the science behind this but it’s just something that came into my brain and I wanted to right it out.

What if we are just cancer cells on a bigger cell. Slowly killing it.

Vaccines… the controversy

SO! I am not one that loves to make people angry and push my thoughts on them like it is the only true correct way to live in this world, because that is not right. I see all sides and you choose to do the right thing for you and if I were you in your situation I would do the same… because I would be you, not me haha. BUT I do love informing people of information that I find that can be controversial to what we have been taught over time.

Vaccines. There is so much weight on that word. Stones are being thrown from every direction to the counter argument of what each individual believes. Vaccines save lives BUT Vaccines also make people sick… and sometimes people die because of them. Vaccines prevent diseases and virus’ from spreading BUT most virus’ and diseases can be fought at home with natural remedies if the person has a strong immune system. Yes people can die from diseases and virus’, but getting vaccinated does not mean that you aren’t going to get the sicknesses anyway. So do what you do and what you think is right, and back off telling me what is right because I’M NOT YOU! 🙂 I’m me.

I’m friends with some pretty great free thinking people and I have heard all sides of all stories. Lots of my family work in the medical field and have the book and responses memorized about everything controversial… they were tested on it. I also have some super natural friends who swear against vaccines and lab made drugs and medicine. I see both sides. Both sides work. BUT I have never quite figured out where I stand on vaccines.

I vaccinated my first daughter Jade and she didn’t get autism and she is just fine. K great, there’s that. Now I have another daughter and she is about to go in for her 1 year checkup and she is scheduled for some vaccines. I started wondering about the whole vaccine controversy of the link between autism and vaccines and started doing some research. There are many websites by mayoclinic, webmd, cdc, babycenter and such that say that there is no proof that autism is linked to vaccines, end of conversation. But wait a second… why are so many people still freaking out then? This couldn’t have just come from no where. So I dug for some websites that backed the idea and found some interesting stuff.

I’m just going to throw the article here of the retired Doctor that can now talk about the subject because her career is not on the line…

For all those who’ve declared the autism-vaccine debate over – a new scientific review begs to differ. It considers a host of peer-reviewed, published theories that show possible connections between vaccines and autism.

The article in the Journal of Immunotoxicology is entitled “Theoretical aspects of autism: Causes–A review.” The author is Helen Ratajczak, surprisingly herself a former senior scientist at a pharmaceutical firm. Ratajczak did what nobody else apparently has bothered to do: she reviewed the body of published science since autism was first described in 1943. Not just one theory suggested by research such as the role of MMR shots, or the mercury preservative thimerosal; but all of them.

Ratajczak’s article states, in part, that “Documented causes of autism include genetic mutations and/or deletions, viral infections, and encephalitis [brain damage] following vaccination [emphasis added]. Therefore, autism is the result of genetic defects and/or inflammation of the brain.”

The article goes on to discuss many potential vaccine-related culprits, including the increasing number of vaccines given in a short period of time. “What I have published is highly concentrated on hypersensitivity, Ratajczak told us in an interview, “the body’s immune system being thrown out of balance.”

University of Pennsylvania’s Dr. Brian Strom, who has served on Institute of Medicine panels advising the government on vaccine safety says the prevailing medical opinion is that vaccines are scientifically linked to encephalopathy (brain damage), but not scientifically linked to autism. As for Ratajczak’s review, he told us he doesn’t find it remarkable. “This is a review of theories. Science is based on facts. To draw conclusions on effects of an exposure on people, you need data on people. The data on people do not support that there is a relationship. As such, any speculation about an explanation for a (non-existing) relationship is irrelevant.”

Ratajczak also looks at a factor that hasn’t been widely discussed: human DNA contained in vaccines. That’s right, human DNA. Ratajczak reports that about the same time vaccine makers took most thimerosal out of most vaccines (with the exception of flu shots which still widely contain thimerosal), they began making some vaccines using human tissue. Ratajczak says human tissue is currently used in 23 vaccines. She discusses the increase in autism incidences corresponding with the introduction of human DNA to MMR vaccine, and suggests the two could be linked. Ratajczak also says an additional increased spike in autism occurred in 1995 when chicken pox vaccine was grown in human fetal tissue.

Why could human DNA potentially cause brain damage? The way Ratajczak explained it to me: “Because it’s human DNA and recipients are humans, there’s homologous recombinaltion tiniker. That DNA is incorporated into the host DNA. Now it’s changed, altered self and body kills it. Where is this most expressed? The neurons of the brain. Now you have body killing the brain cells and it’s an ongoing inflammation. It doesn’t stop, it continues through the life of that individual.”

Dr. Strom said he was unaware that human DNA was contained in vaccines but told us, “It does not matter…Even if human DNA were then found in vaccines, it does not mean that they cause autism.” Ratajczak agrees that nobody has proven DNA causes autism; but argues nobody has shown the opposite, and scientifically, the case is still open.

A number of independent scientists have said they’ve been subjected to orchestrated campaigns to discredit them when their research exposed vaccine safety issues, especially if it veered into the topic of autism. We asked Ratajczak how she came to research the controversial topic. She told us that for years while working in the pharmaceutical industry, she was restricted as to what she was allowed to publish. “I’m retired now,” she told CBS News. “I can write what I want.”

We wanted to see if the CDC wished to challenge Ratajczak’s review, since many government officials and scientists have implied that theories linking vaccines to autism have been disproven, and Ratajczak states that research shows otherwise. CDC officials told us that “comprehensive review by CDC…would take quite a bit of time.” In the meantime, CDC provided these links:

Interagency Autism Coordination Committee:

Overview of all CDC surveillance and epi work:

CDC study on risk factors and causes:

So maybe I don’t want to give my youngest daughter the MMR vaccine… will she die if she gets mumps, measles or rubella? Nope. There are at home remedies for all of it. Yes they are highly contagious, but hey most people have the vaccine and my daughter is healthy. (ok ok that’s kind of rude and selfish… but it’s what I’m thinking right now.)

Another article that I found went into what exactly is in the MMR vaccine, and yes the article has a biased feel to it because of their choice of words describing the ingredients, but it’s a good explanation of what each of the weird named ingredients actually is.

The measles vaccine has initiated a grand debate about immunization. A recent outbreak in the United States has reignited the concern over an illness that, although relatively harmless in most cases, has been somewhat nonexistent in recent years. [1] Concerns over vaccines and autism appear to have resulted in the decline of vaccination rates, possibly contributing to the outbreak. But is this actually true? Or, as the research suggests, could the Measles, Mumps, and Rubella (MMR) vaccine simply not be as effective as we’re being told? Or, could it even be dangerous?

What’s in the MMR Vaccine?

The ingredients contained in most vaccines are often unrecognizable terms that should, at first glance, appear worrisome. Injecting chemical ingredients–not to mention a live (albeit weakened) virus–into your bloodstream doesn’t sound like the wisest decision. Here’s a basic rundown of the ingredients in the MMR vaccine [2]:

Minimum Essential Medium

This is the medium that grows the Rubella virus and contains vitamins and amino acids and fetal bovine serum, which is produced from blood collected at commercial slaughterhouses.

Sodium Phosphate

Typically added to maintain pH balance and to keep active ingredients suspended in water. It can cause gastrointestinal problems but has also been linked with organ damage. In some instances, it can cause a severe allergic reaction that might include heart arrhythmia, seizure, and loss of consciousness.

Recombinant Human Albumin

Human albumin is a protein found in blood plasma and recombinant means it’s genetically engineered. In essence, the vaccine contains genetically-engineered human blood, and it’s uncertain as to the source. When this is injected, it’s been known to cause chills, fever, nausea, increased heart rate, and difficulty breathing.


An antibiotic that’s been known to cause serious allergic reactions in some individuals. Anyone who has ever had a life threatening allergic reaction to neomycin (or antibiotics in general) should absolutely avoid the MMR vaccination! One of the scariest things about neomycin is that it can cause late reactions, sometimes 3-4 days after exposure, well into the time period when you may think you’re in the clear.


A synthetic sweetener often added to foods and beverages, sorbitol is used in vaccines as a stabilizer. Some people are allergic to sorbitol or fructose and should avoid it but even without the allergy, sorbitol can cause gastrointestinal issues and aggravate IBS.

Medium 199

Also used as a stabilizer. This medium contains vitamins, amino acids, and fetal bovine serum. Fetal bovine serum, again, is produced from the blood collected at commercial slaughterhouses.

Hydrolyzed Gelatin

Hydrolyzed gelatin is collagen collected from the bones of animals, including cows, fish, poultry, and rabbits. It contains free glutamic acid (MSG) and aspartic acid, two amino acids that can negatively affect neurological health. Even worse, injecting gelatin greatly increases the risk of infection from synthetic growth hormones and mad cow disease.

Chick Embryo Cell Culture

Derived from chick embryo, this cell culture is used to grow and store the live virus in the vaccine. When injected, the immune system is exposed and gets to work to build short-lived immunity against the illness.

WI-38 Human Diploid Lung Fibroblasts

WI-38 is a cell culture line obtained from aborted fetuses and used in the production of various vaccines. The purpose of this cell line is to culture and grow live viruses.

What About the Measles Booster Shot?

Following the initial dose of the measles vaccine, a booster shot is recommended at varying intervals to support immunity against the disease. The booster is the same vaccine containing a weakened version of the live virus that targets the immune system in an effort to elevate it back to a protective state. Since a vaccine, if effective, is said to wean after a few years’ time, receiving a booster every few years or so is supposed to rev up the body’s defense system by recharging the previous immunization.

Adults who missed out on the MMR vaccine in their childhood and those tested to show they are not immune to the disease are urged to receive a booster. The issue is that the MMR booster contains similar ingredients as the MMR vaccine, prompting the same health threats. While most people can receive a booster without any issue whatsoever, there is always a risk that reactions can occur following injection of the live virus.

Measles Vaccine and Autism: What’s the Connection?

It should be noted that the CDC advises pregnant women against receiving the MMR vaccine for fear that it may harm the developing fetus. This warning should tip most people off. While it’s not conclusive that the MMR vaccine–or any vaccine, for that matter–causes autism, we do know that a number of connections have been made. A now-refuted publication in the medical journal The Lancet reported that the MMR vaccine and autism were indefinitely linked. Despite the claims of the author, other reputable publications and mainstream media outlets continue to explore the possibility of the connection between neurological damage and immunization. [3]

A number of cases relating to the MMR vaccine and autism have been made public. The Italian Health Ministry in 2012 ruled that the MMR vaccine received by a nine-year-old boy caused him to develop autism. [4] The family was awarded with ÂŁ140,000 in damages. According to the news report at the time, up to 100 similar cases were being investigated by lawyers in Italy. Health officials generally regard the development of autism immediately following vaccination a mere coincidence, but with more and more cases coming to light, it becomes increasingly difficult to support this theory.

The Full Story

The media is quick to blame the anti-vaxxers, as they’re calling them, parents who refuse to vaccinate their children on moral, religious, or health grounds, for the measles outbreak in North America. This one-sided viewpoint isn’t investigating the numerous accounts of adverse reactions to vaccinations, or the fact that the measles vaccine isn’t always 100% effective at preventing the illness. Measles, like the chicken pox, is a relatively benign disease that, once infected and recovered from, provides immunity from future occurrences. This isn’t to say that infection with the illness is ideal or to downplay the negative complications that can arise, but it is a conversation worth having in today’s discussion on vaccines.

Aborted Fetal Tissue!?

Blood Collected at Commercial Slaughterhouses?!

Genetically Engineered Human Blood Plasma?!!

No thanks… I try my best to support organic, non-gmo, non-cannibal, vegan ways of life. WOW.

Who Was the First Baby in the World?

So this is a question that Jade has asked me multiple times in the past few days, but she follows it with ,”Jack?” (which is my oldest brother, haha). This got me thinking though, who was the first baby in the world?

Was a baby human the first form of a human? There’s no way that we could survive without a mother, no mammal does. Even if we evolved from some other animal, they had to come from something too, which also needed a mother.

I mean Christians knocked that question out with saying that two fully formed humans were put on Earth, and they had a baby (Cain or Abel I think). So I guess Adam and Eve had to have a daughter too… and then some kind of incest had to happen to keep humanity going. BUT I don’t know about all that.

Jade has got me thinking though.

Homemade Beeswax Candles

In my last post I gave a recipe for some all natural herbal cough syrup, because Jade was constantly getting sick. Her cough and phlegm quickly went away with the homemade cough syrup and eliminating sugar and dairy (mostly) out of her diet. After much research I found out that sugar and dairy create massive amounts of phlegm and mucus and we definitely were still on a sugar high after Halloween. Now that Jade is healthy I have been looking into things to maintain health.

I remembered that I had once been told that candles clean the air so I started researching candles and which ones are the best for cleaning the air. I came across some crazy information; most candles are made with paraffin, even soy candles, and emit 7 toxic chemicals into your air when burned. Well hey, there’s that. Paraffin is obtained from the sludge at the end of petroleum distilling process. Paraffin is what is left behind after asphalt is made from the petroleum; so it’s the super unwanted nasty reject petroleum that they need to get rid of, so hey, lets burn it in our homes and put it on our faces (it’s used in many cosmetics). The chemicals that are released are carcinogenic and very bad for us. Sorry to inform you, but those smell good candles you burn all day are probably stacking blocks on the pyramid of chemicals in your life that are giving you cancer. So let’s look into candles that 1. don’t give us cancer, and 2. actually clean our air.

Pictures of my first beeswax/ coconut oil candle and some of the supplies

Beeswax candles are the answer; they are environmentally friendly (when sourced responsibly), and improve your health by cleaning your air of dust, dander, pollen and pollutants. Negative ions are released when beeswax candles are burned and attach themselves to positive ions (such as dust, pollen, dander), which then neutralize and fall to the floor. Many people with asthma swear by beeswax candles in making breathing a lot easier in the home. I started looking online to buy beeswax candles and quickly found, like usual, it’s best to just make it yourself; the cheap ones had horrible reviews and all the good ones were very expensive. I justified my spending $40-60 on candle making equipment by saying that I would give most of them as Christmas presents.

Even if a candle says PURE beeswax, it only needs 51% beeswax to attain that label. Look for 100% pure beeswax candles, or make them yourself. I made mine using 1 lb of beeswax and 1/2 cup of coconut oil, so mine weren’t 100% beeswax but the coconut oil helps burn evenly.

I’m still tweaking my candle recipe and will post it once I make all the mistakes and corrections.

Thanks for reading!

Winter Solstice

I love celebrating: I love the build up, I love the commercialism that gets us all, I love the cheesy decorations, the lies, the crazy religious people, I love it all. BUT I also like giving thanks where it is properly needed; to our Earth and Sun.

My husband Zaq and I have been slowly figuring out who we are as soulmates, parents, and spiritual beings these past 3 years that we have been sewn together. We went from complete denial in Christianity, because it was forced upon both of us as children, to finally coming back to it with a more understanding and analytical mind frame. We know that there are great things that are at the roots of Christianity, like love, understanding, oneness and equality. Jesus is my home boy and he never wanted a crazy religion to be based off of him, he wanted to be a good example to people, to open peoples eyes, and to lead them to the truth and almighty God (whoever that may be to you). Buddha did the same, along with most other prophets. Zaq and I have also wanted to somehow fit some pagan rituals into our life without approaching them from a flashy fake way. Most Christian holidays are based on old pagan holidays and I believe that the old way was more true in what deserves the attention. So this year we will be doing multiple things to celebrate the holidays; going to church on Christmas eve with my mom, and celebrating Winter Solstice on December 21.

I don’t like boxes; we are not Christian and we are not Pagan, but I consider myself a little bit of both and many other religions. I think that being with family, creating community through food and rituals, thanking Gods messengers of love and truth, and thanking the Earth and the Great Mother for the cycles that we go through here on Earth are the most important thing for us on the holidays.

I’ve never celebrated Winter Solstice so I’ve had to do a little research. Over time I’m sure our ritual will evolve but for now these are a couple things that I would like to include. This one is learned from a kids outdoor activity website and all these activities are very family oriented.

My very oppositely sized girls snuggling and a small collection of wintery plants and homemade candles.
  • Winter Solstice is the shortest day and longest night of the year. It is the first day of winter and marks when the days start to get longer again. It is filled with hope for the sun’s rebirth as it gets closer to the Summer Solstice.
  1. Take a walk at dusk: Winter Solstice is the shortest day of the year and dusk comes the earliest on this day. Taking a walk during dusk is a good way to observe this day and change of season. Make your walk include just before dusk and just after. This early walk in the dark will be a unique experience and an exciting way to welcome the Winter Solstice.
  2. Gather Solstice plants: On your walk gather fallen twigs and Solstice plants like holly and evergreen, which were used among ancient Greeks and Celts to decorate their halls because of the belief that they contained magic because they stayed green throughout Winter. If you don’t have these plants just gather some of your favorite local plants.
  3. Create a Winter spiral: Using boughs of evergreen, create a spiral with a candle at the center. This should be done outside in your yard, at a park, or wherever you feel comfortable doing it outside. The candle in the middle symbolizes the sun and our place at the darkest part of our year’s cycle and moving back towards the sunniest part of our cycle. If you’re on a walk in a park and you don’t want to carry evergreen branches into the park just pick up sticks off the ground around you.
  4. Spin, revolve, twirl, twist: Act out the Earth’s cycle by walking into the spiral and back out and spinning and twirling as much as you want. The lil kids naturally want to spin and will love doing this and are encouraged to do as much spinning as they feel fit, even rolling down the hill.
  5. Light and hope: Bring a candle for each family member and when dusk is beginning to rapidly fall place them all in a circle and light them. Give each family member time to share hopes and wishes. They could include things like hopes for the world, family and friends, or promises for doing good in the community. Whatever your kids are feeling.
  6. Decorate with tree fruit: On you walk, gather tree fruit, like gum-balls, that you can make nature ornaments out of. You can also collect freshly fallen boughs from a willow tree to bend into a 5-pointed star, which is another pagan symbol for Solstice.
  7. Feast: It wouldn’t be a pagan ritual if it didn’t include a feast of some sort. Whether it be your favorite thing to make for you family, something made out of food from your garden, cookies shaped like the sun or just whatever you’re feeling.

Sometimes I feel a bit lost at the end of the year. The last day is celebrated with skanky clothes, lots of alcohol, cocaine and glitter. Haha, not by me, anymore, but most the people I know (my friends are still in their mid-20s). Just going through these websites and researching Winter Solstice and how people have celebrated it in the past has really just rung true with me. Celebrating the transition from the days getting shorter to the days getting longer and the path towards Summer Solstice seems more relevant to me than celebrating the last day on our calendar which represents nothing significant, that I know of, tell me if I’m wrong. Making hopes and wishes on the actual transition of daylight makes more sense than making New Years resolutions that start the day after you binge and celebrate a square block on a stack of paper.

This is a Winter Solstice celebration that I paraphrased from this Tinkergarten Activity. It seems very fitting for my family where we are at in life right now. I encourage you to make up or find a ritual that seems right to you.